Faithful Friend

       God is so faithful! I was reading through John and came across the verses where Jesus says, "If you ask Me anything in my name, I will do it." (John 14:14) "If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you." (John 15:7) "Truly, truly, I say to you, if you ask the Father for anything in My name, He will give it to you." (John 16:23) I dont really understand these verses in their depths but I am so grateful that God is the perfect giver and willing to answer our prayers! I recently started praying that God would break me to remake me into the man I was intended to be and He is answering that prayer. I have gone through so much this last week. It is as if God is remodeling my heart and I feel like my mind and heart is in a blender, yet I know that God is the man pushing the buttons making me into the most delicious drink.

      I am more often than not at a loss for words for what God is doing in my heart yet I don't know if Jesus would want me to share the intimate details of the love story and romancing that He is bringing me through. On my last Royal Servants summer mission trip to Costa Rica (that's a mouthful) one of the boys I was leading shared with me the quote "when Jesus is all you have, you realize He is all you need." It is not a common thing to watch someone willingly throw aside everything to get to know Christ more... again I mean EVERYTHING: family, money, jobs, skills, intelligence, friends, abilities, lies, routines, comforts and the list goes on and on. But I realize that is what it takes. I pray that God continues to teach me how to open my grip from around the things I hold onto so dearly and when I won't do it willingly I pray that He will pry them open! Here at Kairos we explain this feat as the "Holy two by four" which is often needed to knock some sense into us.

     Lately, Christ has been trying to teach me about my pride and insecurities; that I needn't live to affirm myself in the eyes of man. This is such a struggle for me to understand. From what I see, peoples love is conditional. There are those who will love me "unconditionally" but because of who I am. I received a "heavy revy" (revelation) from a quote in an AA book that states, "People treat you the way you train them to treat you." My actions and attitudes determine peoples responses to me. So with all that said, I have yet to figure out who I am at the core of my being, and how to live that out without being insecure, living to get certain responses from people, or manipulating people to feed my pride; or essentially to live naked, clothed in the Truth of God. But oftentimes living with this garment, or rather, without them, scares people, confuses people, convicts people.. generally it brings negative emotions and people withdraw or it is so in my own mind. It has been a very challenging wrestling match in my mind and my emotions are haywire. This is just one of the many many things God is bringing me through. It is also challenging because I understand how immature my faith and my emotional and mental age is and a lot of this comes with time if I embrace the lesson and learn from it and others'.

     But God is faithful! And even if I have it all wrong, I trust He will bring me into the truth in time, the right time. We just recently finished the book "The Master Plan Of Evangelism" by Robert E. Coleman that explains the method of discipleship Jesus uses to evangelize. It was an awesome book and I recommend it to all. My Kairos team and I are also planning 5 days of ministry in Kansas. This can look like anything we would like it to look like. The staff just explained a few things and said here you go! It is up to us to plan whatever it is we have a passion for. I will let you more know details as they come along. This Sunday my team and I are also leaving to go to Arkansas to work with a business that gives 50% of everything to missions and also to go camping for two nights. I am excited to see what a business serving God in huge ways like this looks like. I enjoy an opportunity to see many different styles of everything from missions, to churches, to people, states, businesses, countries, Gods activity...

    



I like to update you with pictures but this is the only new picture I have taken in the past week. This is a little rabbit we found getting attacked by a dog. We rescued it, named it Lilly, and returned it to its home.







PRAYER UPDATES!!!

• I need to raise $2,600 by April 15th and I would love some prayers that God brings in this money
• Pray that God continues to show up in my life and work in amazing ways growing me and teaching me
• Pray against satan and his deception and dissension he causes in my heart and in my group
• That my team has safe travels to and from Arkansas, that our eyes are open to Gods work in this time, and that we grow more unified as a team body and in Christ
• That I am open to see Gods romantic love for me in my life
• That my roommate Keegan and I continue to grow closer

Thank you all so much, I love you all so deeply, and I am also praying for you!

                                                   It is all for Him,
                                                          Stephen Reynolds